Sometimes I worry for my metal state.

And then I remember that I've not done anything wrong, but I still feel guilty.

Does that make it worse?

I think it does.

Swirling confusion surrounds me from all sides and I do not know who to turn to.

Promises tie my hands behind my back and gag me.

I feel helpless and hurt.

I want to help.

My arms cannot move.

My mouth cannot speak.