Out of my Head

I know this is a lot choppier then anything I've ever written before, but this is almost completely unaltered from what came out the first time around, it's just what's floating around in my head.
Maybe one day I'll go back and refine some of these ideas into something more real, but if I don't I'm okay with that too.

Enjoy:

You have got to be kidding me.

I think I might like you.
I think I might hate myself for it.

Maybe I let my mind wander to you.
But only once.

Okay, twice.

But it means nothing.
Not a thing.

Right?

It can't. I can't.

This is not how I function.

Unacceptable.

Why am I trying so hard to push any thought of you away?
Why is it so hard, so impossible, to do?

God knows it kills me to even write about you where I know you'll never see it.

Fuck.

This is ridiculous.

This is not how I act.
Not how I react.

It can't be.
I can't.